Oh dear, it's been quite a while since I wrote here. To be honest, I didn't feel the need to write at all. But now I find myself missing the therapeutic act of letting your thoughts out. So here we go.
I've been having sessions once a week with a life coach. Honestly, I was very sceptic about what she could do for me. But after almost 2 months, I can now say she has changed my life. You go to a life coach, and choose a subject about yourself you want to change or make better. I firstly worked on allowing myself to be more outgoing, and accepting that I too desserve a good and fulfilling life. We now moved on to working on my need to always be proper/prepared/wellbehaved. I'm a bit of a control freak, and have a hard time letting go. Which, if you know me, is NO surprise. But I am hopeful for change. Because I have experienced how much she have already helped, and have no doubts she can help with this too. It's crazy how much I have changed in so little time. And even crasier if you think back to my mindset a year ago.
I used to be so bitter and angry with the world. Sad, and perhaps also a little broken. How come everyone else got to be happy and not me? Why did I always have to get the short end of the deal? What I've learned this past year is, it's all about what you put out. We all have energies we let out, and people around us pick them up. So if all I let out is negative and sad.... That's what I'm gonna get back. I noticed the change quickly, about a year ago, when I let go of a lot of my negativity.
So now I live by the rule of trying to think positive, try not to judge and expect the worst in people, try to be the change I want to see in the world. Because change was needed. A very dear friend Simona have commented on how much she could tell I needed that change, and how much better I seem now. And that was only amplified even more, after my sessions with my life coach. My family commented on how happy I seemed all of the sudden. How I stopped being apologetic about myself. How it was no longer a matter about IF I was allowed a spot in this world, but more a matter of finding WHERE my spot was. You can say, I am more myself now, than I have ever been.
The last part I wanna talk about is I, about 6 months ago applied to business school. You can decide to specialize in detail, business, administration, or event management. I have applied for administration, and will have to start looking for internships either in public administration, or secretary jobs at doctors/lawyers/companies. I am SO excited to start. It's a 10 week intensive school program, with 2 years of internships afterwards. Then you go to your final exam, and then you have a business degree. I can do this, because I already have a sort of college degree. It's tough comparing danish school to american or english schools. It's just so very different. But I hope this is making sense, anyway. For the non-danish readers.
In any case. This blog will go through a bit of a transformation, and become more personal, than anything else. I'm sick of trying to write about "exciting stuff" as if my own life and personal stuff isn't exciting enough. So we're done with that. I'll try and write more about my change to a healthier and happier life in the next blog.
Until next time (hopefully soon...)
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